I sit here nursing four incisions and a bruised up lower belly.
The long and the short of it: my doctor found a small deposit of old endometriosis tissue behind my left ovary.
For those of you wondering: No, I didn't ever have definitive symptoms that pointed to endometriosis. That said, I was curious because my body has NEVER been the same after our first miscarriage and D&C. I used to lay in bed crying at night cursing our old doctor and sending searing hate to her over my altered internal body. Daniel, our current doctor and myself are all very curious if my symptoms will fade now that this tissue has been removed.
So what now in terms of babies?
I haven't got a straight answer on that one. The jury is out in the scientific community in terms of the correlation between endometriosis and infertility. The jury is also out on whether or not this was the reason we have had such trouble conceiving. The jury is out on whether IVF is needed or not.
Our doctor seems to think we can get pregnant on our own with the caveat that she's really not sure how long it will take... I cried when we had that conversation. I think it was the combination of severe pain and a huge cocktail of anaesthetic and drugs... I just want definitive answers damn it!
I have to say it is damn well tempting to hold off on our date with IVF in November as we had planned... See what happens the old fashioned way now but another part of me is scared that we'll just be wasting precious time by waiting.
So yes... Watch this space.
For those of you curious about a diagnostic laparoscopy and removal of endometriosis:
I have experienced a lot more pain than I thought I would. Mostly because the deposit of tissue was in a hard to reach place (I'm thinking). Prepare for at least a week of feeling like rubbish; I spent one night in hospital as I was in severe pain and then the next few days on the lounge at home. I am almost a week out from surgery and feeling more mobile and less pain ridden but still very tired and glad I'm not working again until next week.
The best things I did to prepare:
I made sure our cupboards were stocked to the brim with everything
I made lots of soups the day before surgery and ate a mostly liquid diet for a few days (you don't want to be eating a three-course meal after that surgery and painkillers will constipate)
I washed all my big baggy tees and pants for lounging (you won't want anything tight rubbing your incisions - I actually have my pants slung like a homie-G because of the incisions)
Bought lots of panadol and nurofen
Bought stool softener
Things I wish I had done:
Made jelly and other liquid-based foods (I got mega over soup... thinking about soup makes me nauseous now)
Bought some nighties or baggy t-shirt dresses (pants are just so damn uncomfortable on my incisions)