I am one month post surgery today.
At this point, I can happily report that I am healing up nicely although the last week has brought extreme exhaustion with it. Given it's winter here, I have been amping up my vitamin C intake just in case but I am attributing this to my body healing itself. I cannot say I am without pain, I have some internal bruising on my right side that is not budging!
Since my last post I can happily report that we have experienced a return to optimism in this house. Daniel and I have decided to treat this surgery and discovery of endometriosis as a very possible cause of our infertility. Rather than rushing into IVF we have decided to see if we can do this again ourselves.
This decision was spurred by a couple of things... Things got real and real fast, ladies! Our doctor has increased the length of our proposed IVF protocol to now include at least two months of 'down regulation'. This means that I would be in a menopause-like state before we start stimulation for IVF. The purpose of this treatment is to kill all endometrial tissue anywhere in my body. My doctor told me this with a nervous laugh and then went on to explain all the truly lovely side effects... dry everything(!), mood swings, hot flushes... After hearing all this the prospect of IVF this year started to feel stressful, overwhelming, yucky and a huge impediment to my PhD progress.
On top of all that, Daniel and I just need a break. We need a break from all the driving to appointments (now 1.5 hours away) and all the stress of treatments. We are both so drained from the last six months of IUIs, scans, tests, surgery and on top of all that, we have lives to live! When you're in the midst of trying to conceive everything else can start to be pushed aside including work and any kind of quality of life. My doctor has told me on several occasions to stop putting so much pressure on myself to fall pregnant and after all this time, I can finally understand what she has been telling me. So now the pressure is off and the focus is back on living. We each have a lot going on with work and we also need to settle in to our new town more but most importantly, we just need some 'us' time. The 'us' around here has definitely been neglected and has become a little frayed of late.
Unless we are advised otherwise, we are thinking IVF will have to wait until March or April next year. In that time I will have finished my PhD thesis, Daniel will have finished his first book and it should be published, we will have saved more money to make IVF plus a possible baby more possible and enjoyed life together a whole bunch more - sounds damn good to me!
Thank you to everyone who has sent me well wishes, I truly appreciate it!